The Winter Blues

I always get the "Winter Blues" about this time every year. Everything looks gray outside and it gets me very depressed. I used to always try to take a trip in the month of March. This did two things for me. One, it gave me something to look forward to in the winter. Secondly, if I saw and felt the hot sun for a week or so it would remind me that it would soon come to the frigid state of Michigan. It was like the the sunrays would penetrate into my skin and rejuvenate me for a couple more months until it soon again got warm in Michigan. Therefore, it would help cure my "Winter Blues". I love the hot sun and these terribly cold months are hard for me to get through. Most of all, I hate it when the sun is shining and it is about seventeen degrees fahrenheit. The sun is so deceiving. I would rather it not shine at all. I talked to a friend today on the phone and she said to me "Oh, wasn't it a beautiful weekend?" And she continued to go on about the sun shining so beautifully. I said "No. It was fuckin cold." How can anyone think that anything under seventy degrees is beautiful? It is puzzling to me.

Today, I do not have a pit in my stomach. Things with the husband have been good the past couple of days. I really hope that they continue to go that way. He told me today that he has the "Winter Blues". So, I was then trying to correlate our rough times in our relationship to the seasons. I concluded that we both hate the winter and we tend to argue a lot more in the winter. In the summer, we always seem to be so much more happier and much more in love. So, now I have one more reason to hate the winter and have the "Winter Blues".

P.S. I hope my Guardian Angel is still watching over us.